Headache
Got a headache today from sleeping too much. Sometimes I wonder whether I went to sleep because I was truly tired or because I didn't want to face the assignments and study materials that I am supposed to read. With the gloom of FYP hanging in the air, I don't know whether I actually look forward to the december holidays or not. My original intention was to complete the lab segment of my FYP before the end of semester 1 and then focus on doing the write-up and poster during the holidays.... at my own leisure in time. Unfortunately, with the hiccups that occurred and the range of plants that I had inadvertently foolishly tried to cover in my project, that possibility remains but a mid-summer night's dream. The Fukuoka trip at the start of december seems like a good get-away from the stresses of school life and a time of bonding with my family. It is something to look forward to, yes, but my heart remains lonely without a love. A relationship is one thing that perhaps I may never be prepared to commit for, at least in what society's expectations of a relationship is, yet I desire. This and the uncertainties of what is to become of me after graduation cloud my soul with fear and trepidation. Expectations to meet, yes too, but I can tell that my family would support me in anything I decide to do in the end, albeit with some disappointment if I fail to be what they think i want to be. I have a feeling that finding joy in my future work may be a detachment to what the job entails, but perhaps I would give it a try. Headache has dissapated somewhat. I guess in part my unstable mentality over my problems had to do with the headache. Writing all these thoughts out really helps...somewhat anyway.
Hyperlink updates
Finally updated my links. My previous online repository at Geocities closed down when Geocities closed. =(Anyway, its nice to see that my seifer and hyperion pictures are up again. On a side note, that also means that my song score links are up and running again. Took me quite awhile though. Blogs are really time-consuming! haha!! Well, on scores, its a pity that i lack the inspiration, skill or creativity to write/transcribe scores freely. Been showing very little progress both in playing and writing new songs. Wish things were easier... =(
Axes to grind
Brought raw brinjal, brocolli and romanian lettuce to school today instead of my packed lunches. Discovered it as my RA came round my room and well, had an awkward moment. haha... Another obfuscation is about my printer. Granted that it works well and the print quality is amazing, but sometimes, it just refuses to print a pdf document. Wonder if its a problem with the printer or a problem with my computer. In any case, i prolly need to get it fixed soon cuz its wasting alot of time trying to trouble shoot the problem.
2nd week is about to come to an end. Had a very long day yesterday. I thought that going to play captain's ball after that would have been good but well, that was only if i managed to play at all. Was disappointed when winning became the motive for the team to the point where more capable players from outside the team were called to substitute instead of friends on the bench. Perhaps i'm taking this too harshly, perhaps i've been giving the "wrong signals" about playing or perhaps i'm being pitied for getting a graze during 3 minutes of play but still, it becomes very hurtful when you're thrown to one side just to watch an entire competition's worth of games, cheering for the team that doesn't even recognize you as a useful part of it. I'm probably thinking too much but i guess this episode would teach me stuff about friendship and such. I hope never to repeat such a post.
Welcome 2010
Once again, another hiatus since my last post. But i guess everyone's used to that by now.Anyway, school has started again and i'm back at my 2nd home in PGP; prolly my last 3 months there. Its quite a relief that nothing much has changed (thankfully) since i moved back home for a month after last sem's exams. I kinda liked the pristine condition my clustermates and I maintained throughout the previous 3 months i lived there. haha! Well, although much remains the same, there are now some new faces in the block, including a friendly swedish exchange student, whom i talked to just last Tuesday. (Hopefully they won't go wild while i'm boss there.) =)On lessons...well.... i wish that the department had placed more emphasis on scheduling when they booked our exams and timetables. This may not be shocking to seniors out there but i ended up with two 10am-6pm days, two 9-12 and 2 - 5pm days plus an irritating 4-6pm tutorial on an otherwise vacant Wednesday. Module exams weren't better. In fact, it seems like they were rushing to wash us off their charge with 2 exams on the 27th and 3 exams back to back 2 days after that. Wouldn't be surprised if some of us end up in an IMH vacation or someplace similar. heh...Anyway, before the madness starts proper, a few of us met back again for a rare secondary school reunion at Handburger, Raffles City. The old faces were warming, the memories.... nostalgic but the price for a bloody handburger was ridiculously outrageous! Below is the fish burger i bought from them... (might wanna guess the price)
It cost me about eighteen dollars just for that 2 pieces of fried fish, bun, mutilated tomato (yeah..that's the squiched thing at the right side) and cordiments. I'm prolly exagerrating (next door there sold soup for ten) and the relative prices of the area were more or less equally "exquisite", but still... compared to buffets at respectable restaurants that I had at similar prices, this fish bun was daylight robbery man! Thankfully the meals there tasted good generally and it was filling enough to spare some unfortunate fries on my friends' platters but, i prolly would look for victuals elsewhere.Oh lastly, as mentioned, Fun-O-Rama is finally around the corner again. Wonder if i griped about it 2 years ago but what happened last time could be summerised via the word "mobilisation". Consider it piety, consider it loyalty to country, but if you were to do it in my shoes, you too would hurl vituperations to the organisation. Hopefully i won't be forced to miss it this time round. Things sometimes have a perculiar way of clicking together the wrong way.....Hope you had a happier start to the new year than I did. And if not, my post would've prolly made you happier anyway. =) Till next post!
